Forgiveness

This is somewhat of a tough topic for me. I say this because at times I can be very spiteful. Sometimes I do not want to forgive others. Sometimes those others don’t deserve my forgiveness. An apology does not always clear up the damage that has been done. Time does not always clear up the damage that has been done either. Accepting an apology is not always easy to accept. A lot of thought goes into an apology. Even if an apology is given 8 months later it should still be respected not necessarily forgiven.

            Forgiveness is not something that should just be handed out. To forgive you need to have some type of reassurance. The person who has done wrong needs to confront you about there wrongdoing and. If you feel that they are worthy of forgiveness they shall receive it. I am usually not easy to forgive. Being a forgiving person does not make you a push over. If someone is forgiving all of the time then they become a push over. It lets other know that they can push you around without any consequence.

            I know how this feels because I used to let it happen to me when I was younger I was to kind and forgiving. Now I don’t take any crap from anyone. No one should be too forgiving and no one should be non-forgiving. Not having any forgiveness is unhealthy. It just means you are an angry spiteful person. No one likes an angry person. Forgiveness is a key factor in society. You can not have to much of it and to little of it. I am still trying to find that healthy median that should be achieved.

            There are times in my life where I have forgiven people. I forgive someone at least one time a week. It is only human nature to mess up. There are other times in my life where I still have not forgiven people. I feel that at the moment they do not deserve my forgiveness. I actually have forgiven everyone in my life except for maybe one or two people who shall remain nameless. Sometimes an apology does not make up for the action that was done.

            No matter what someone may call me or do to me I usually forgive them. It all depends on the person who said it and if they truly meant it. I do not like it when someone says something about my family and they do not know them. Do not attack my family or heritage that will set me off. There will be no time for forgiveness. You will most likely be on the ground before you can say you are sorry. Now I have had one of my friends say something about my heritage before and he was not joking around like usual. He seemed pretty serious. I was pissed off and in the end he apologized. He did not mean to call me what he did he was angry and I forgave him for it. Someone else would not get a second chance.

Gag Gifts and Awards

For this weeks blog I am going to just write about how my day went. Well first I woke up and then I went back to sleep. But the out of nowhere I woke up again it was a crazy experience. It has never happened to me before and as you can tell I am using a great deal of sarcasm. But in all seriousness I had a very eventful day. First I had to prepare a lot of gag gifts for my wrestling banquet. At one point during the day I had to run to dollar tree buy a toy horse and then steal one of the shopping carts from dollar tree. It was the hardest gag gift to get. It was raining out and I had to try to sneak it into the bag of my truck. It was all worth it because the look on everyone’s face was priceless when we presented the gift to the wrestler. This was the best year in a long time for gag gifts. I had put a lot of thought into these gifts. Some of them were inside jokes that were completely inappropriate and others were ones that everyone could enjoy. There turned out being 13 total gag gifts. Everyone enjoyed them all as well as the wrestlers.

            Despite the merriment of the gag gifts the banquet itself was very nice. It was the best wrestling banquet I have had in my high school career. It was run comfortably. It was run as if we were all family just enjoying a dinner. Everyone was having a great time and I enjoyed especially since it was the last time my teammates and I would be together. It was a sad moment in my wrestling career but at the same time a very joyous moment.

            It almost brought a tear to my eye when my coach presented me the award for the most outstanding wrestler. I was truly honored. It was a customized award with a list of all my crowning achievements on it. It truly was something to be proud of. It felt great to have so many people support me and look up to me. I didn’t really know what to say when I received the award I felt speechless. I wanted to make a speech but at that moment I could not. I just thanked my coaches and gave them all hugs.

            Later on after the awe of the award had faded I made a speech. I talked about how I could not have done this without the help from all of my amazing coaches. It all started with my grade school recreational wrestling coach. He was there to see me accept the award so he was very happy to hear me speak about him. I also mention how the support of all the parents helped me make it so far. I also included one of Central wrestling’s alumni. His name was Mike Denver he was the one who taught me the moves I needed to make it to states. After thanking everyone and concluding my speech I handed my coaches a special gift. It was an engraved mug in which they highly appreciated. They had never received such an amazing gift. They’re happiness made me happy and ended my already good day on an even better note.

8 Weeks!

Damn… this makes me pretty sad. I didn’t realize how little time there is until my high school career is over. I can say one thing though. I do not regret anything I did in school. I had a great time so far and have accomplished a lot. I have been successful academically and even more successful in athletics. Although I had a pretty amazing and successful high school career there are a few things I wish I had done.

            First off I always worked hard in school but I wish I worked harder. I men sure I got good grades mostly A’s and a few B’s here and there but I wish I did better. I wish I put more time and effort into some of the projects, essays, and tests. I have a good class rank but I wish it were higher. I am seventeen in the class right now I would have liked to be at least in the top ten. My grades and rank were ok but I was not 100 percent happy with them. It would have been a great accomplishment for me if I could have received all A’s and no B’s. Not even an A-. Only an A or A+ would be acceptable.

            I wish I had managed my time better I had some poor time management. I hope to learn to be better at time management in College. The better I manage my time the better my grades will be and the better I will do in Athletics. As a Student going to Rutgers University for wrestling I have a lot on my plate. It is a top 20 in the nation wrestling school. On top of the wrestling I am going to be biology major. I am going to have nearly no time for myself. This is why I will need great time management. To prevent myself from going mad I need to find some free time for myself. I will have to get up early and take care of as much as I can so I do not have to be up so late doing all of my work like I am right now. I will not procrastinate on my work anymore. No matter how much I do not want to do the work I am going to force myself to do it. College is my future and I cannot mess that up. At Rutgers I want to keep up my highest GPA record for the wrestling team. I strive off of my academics. I may have had a few distractions to bring my grades down a little in high school but there will be none in college. I am going to be a strict student who does his work and wrestles. There is only a little time for fun and games. Everything is going to be mostly business. I want to make college the most informative four or five years of my life. I want to be extremely knowledgeable about my profession of choice.